What to do?

What do you do when you cannot stand one of your children? Seriously? I have a child that I have had it with. I'm tired of his constant teasing of the others, his "angry eyes", his mischief....right now, I don't like anything about this child. I'm suppose to leave in a week for a 4 week trip and guess which child is coming with me. The one I don't like! We will either come home miraculously bonded by some amazing work of God or I'll be coming home alone! Do other moms not like their kids? Is it  just his age? Is it me? Is it a test? If so, I'm failing big time. There's a reason he isn't coming home for school with the others this fall. I need space.....from him! Gma thinks God has something amazing planned for him and the devil is after him big time to stop that plan. He must have 2 devils sitting on his shoulders because he has absolutely no self-control. He doesn't know when to stop. Actually, I think he does know, he just chooses not to! He was bugging Trixie yesterday. She's screaming for him to stop and finally she scratches his arm. I don't like it when they hurt each other but in this case, he deserved it. He comes whining to me about it. I told him it was a consequence for his actions. He just doesn't get it. I told him her screaming is code for "Get away from me!" So then he was mad at me that it appears that I didn't care about his scratch. Truly, I didn't! Personally, a little butt whipping is maybe what he needs. The message just isn't getting through any other way. Although, a spanking will just bring on the angry eyes and then he'll say "I hate this day!" Have yet to find a punishment that really works on him. Currently trying a positive approach. He can earn pieces to a huge K'nex set by being good and obedient. Since Tuesday he's earned 14 pieces. Nothing yesterday! Need to rethink this plan. Actually, just need to get through this week. We'll be gone 4 weeks so I can hopefully think this through. Hoping Doc will have a good talk with him and break through this barrier of his.

Did make some progress on a few rooms and lesson plans. Extra busy this week getting all packed up!